I feel like I am losing my mind

Learning that my 14 year old cousin got a girlfriend before me took me out of the fantasy I was living in, which is what gave me enough sanity to be a functioning member of society, and brought me into the black reality that the world really is against me. I want nothing but chaos, death, and destruction of all now. I want for the earth to be catapulted into the sun and for everyone in it to die. I don't think I have ever been so hateful in a universal way before.

Sounds like you already lost your mind… aren’t you supposed to be going to Colombia?

Yes. I should be excited but my emotions are completely numb. I was not even able to bring myself to practice Spanish today. I should be preparing because this is the trip that could bring me out of my misery. But there seems to be something wrong with the way my mind is working. I guess I will go look at some Spanish flashcards now.

Surely you have it way better than the talented white men being screwed over and genocided in the countries that their ancestors created.

They are bringing it upon themselves because whites are too stupid to know what is in their interests. Even though these whites are in some ways bigger losers than me, their situation is not as sad as mine because they are perfectly happy to be genocided. For example my white friend in his early 40s married a woman 10 years older than him, eliminating the possibility that he will ever have kids. Why should we weep for these cattle who are going to their genetic slaughter? Even white nationalists are working against the genetic interests of whites, by inducing whites to cling to a fantasy where they marry chaste white women and raise traditional white family. This is not going to happen so it will just result in whites not reproducing. It is a white suicide, not a white genocide.

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