I want to fulfill my sexual/love fantasies, I have been single since high school and the first decade of my adult life so far. I hate that I have this FOMO and I want it to finally be fulfilled. It isn't helping that I have to live in a society that doesn't nurture this and is in fact hostile to it.
In middle and high school, I had an obsession with this girl and to this day I wish I can find a girl that looked like her and even had a personality that reminded me of her. She was rather popular and bouncy while I was a still relatively socially awkward aspie. White, blonde hair and eyebrows, blue eyes, cute faced.
I want to have a girl who would also have candid bikini pics on her social media and I want to adore her as mine.
She wouldn't be yours anyway if she was exhibiting her goodies to strangers online. The whole idea is silly. Get over it. If you want to marry a marriageable female you will most likely need to do so outside the West. In the West, females are the property of the evil regime.
Ah, I am thinking that I need to broaden my preference and I was just feeling something when I wrote the OP anyway.
For the Christians here, do you know that in the Bible it says in Matthew 22:30 and parables that there is no sexuality in Heaven and new Earth so our sexual desire is wiped blank. It's not fair how could God create something that was supposed to be so great but some people don't get this despite wanting it, and then wipe it away in Heaven. I heard that it's a matter of there being something much better, but it is still arbitrary. The way the world is currently going in that department isn't helping.