It seems the average "normie" has an innate set of "mating impulses" that I lack. He will see an attractive girl and get an uncontrollable urge to start flirting with her. He will start touching her in a non-awkward way. He will talk to her about mundane, everyday things in a bombastic way, using exciting vocal intonations.
These are things you have to do to get a girlfriend, but I don't have the impulses to do these things. So I can't do these things without seeming unnatural.
Yesterday an attractive girl at work looked in my general direction, which is a rare occurrence for me, because normally women are very careful not to look in my general direction, for fear that by doing so they would send a signal that they are attracted to me. I started thinking "What would I do if she came up to me with a smile on her face and started talking to me?" If this happened, it would make me happy, but I would not feel any kind of natural impulse to start flirting with her. It is as if the part of the brain that is normally devoted to these kinds of things has been repurposed in mine for other things.
What can be done about this missing impulse? I understand dating foreign women makes things easier, but I am going to need this impulse for foreign women too.
Irrespective of race, there is always the danger of being exploited. So make sure your affection is reciprocated and that person is honourable. Cultural differences make these qualities difficult to measure.
Restoring Truth, Logic and Morality with Secular Koranism
Autism is a fake disease (by fake I mean over diagnosed). It is a way for society to blame the victim for poor social skills, so that society does not have to admit that it is the problem.
My story is basically similar to Elliot Rodger's, as he describes in his manifesto My Twisted World. I had normal social/communication skills until puberty, and then my peers started rejecting me and I became an outcast, and my social skills just worsened from there. At some point in high school I was talking to some people, after not socializing for a very long time, and I noticed that it had become mentally exhausting to communicate verbally, even though it wasn't like this when I was in elementary school. Group conversation is especially difficult because you have to keep up with the pace of various people's thinking, whereas I grew up having only one-on-one conversations with each of my divorced parents, and in one-on-one conversations the pace is controlled by the slowest one.
I could probably improve my communication skills with practice, but the problem is that the only practice I can think of is to socialize more, and I can't stand socializing because I am irritated by most discussions. For example, at my last workplace it was common for people to discuss the special effects in video games and movies they found exciting, and they would mimic the sound effects using their voices. I cannot stand this sort of discussion.